wiggle your big toe.

pathetic

2008-05-03T13:53:00.001-04:00

i saw some photos of megan fox from a simple, yet stunning photoshoot she did.

i started to cry.

how strange.

2008-04-25T17:30:00.003-04:00

i found an old, private journal online with some very detailed accounts of some of my earliest , most intense erotic encounters and thoughts.

it was weird reading them because i felt like i was doing something wrong, going back to all that.

2007-11-16T17:51:00.001-05:00

i wish i could go back to 2003 and start over.

2007-09-10T22:47:00.000-04:00

it seems as though i'm either just approaching or already going through a mid-life crisis- twenty years in advance.

happy fucking birthday.

2007-09-03T20:50:00.000-04:00

i bought my mom flowers today.

she smiled.

i haven't stopped thinking about the end all day.

2007-08-29T01:19:00.001-04:00

i hope no one i know in person ever actually finds this thing.

but somewhere in my twisted mind, i secretly hope they do.

2007-08-19T12:58:00.000-04:00

i hate food.

let bygones be bygones.

2007-08-13T21:42:00.000-04:00

21 months, 12 days and 7 hours later.
I am still here.
I am still alive.
I am still discovering.
I have learned that I can love.
I have learned that I can feel pain.
I have learned that I'm a fucking asshole.
I have learned that I'm not fucking invincible.
Things don't stay the way they are and constantly change.
Hell, maybe a little faster than the fucking AIDS virus.
I'm still a mystery.
Mostly to myself, that is. And quite possibly those who surround me.
I've picked up many. And I've lost many.
I've lost my job.
I've lost my working status.

And yet I still pay my God damned taxes.

12 months of overindulging.
Of being in another mindset.
And only being me half the time.

I don't even know what I'm talking about. I'll let you know when I do.

Whoever you happen to be.

poke a nose.

2005-11-02T14:49:00.000-05:00

Trip to the Poconos with a bunch of people whom I was not familiar with and came out with some cool friends. It's amazing what you can accomplish in one weekend. And then it's time to leave.

blues.

2005-07-18T23:35:00.000-04:00

I know I keep saying this and it keeps getting older and older as I say it, but Fight Club had the sexiest, best ending for a movie ever. I can't say it in simpler words, or for the people who like using pulchritudinous words, I can't please you there either. Because I have no new artwork and because of the fact that I am a bastard too lazy to look for my USB drive and upload some work onto the computer, I'm going to put up some ancient artifacts. And by ancient, I really mean last summer when I had absolutely no access to the internet and was stuck at home 98% of the time. I'm planning on turning a lot of these into T-shirts.

The thumbnails suck. You can see more recent (and older stuff) here.

bawkbawkbawk i still hate blogs.

2005-07-10T23:30:00.000-04:00

So basically, aside from munching on gobstoppers, the cuppage pretty much summarizes the summer thus far. I still need to go and pick up my gigantic deformed bowl and a couple plates. It was fun.

To keep things disappointing, I did NOT take any photos of fireworks. I'm not a big fan of them. They all come out the same. I'm narrow minded when I want to be. In honor of you, i'll put up a generic looking and very boring cliched nature/landscape photo. Now children, it's time for you to 'ooh' and 'ahh'. Hell, even throw in an 'ooh-la-la' because i'm the only person I know who says that. I'm speaking out of my ass. Again.

Too many photos on hand. Its great how I'm never satisfied with one whole photograph or image and I like portions of it. This is better explained below. The result? A half-assed three in one attempt at being artsy, whatever the hell that may be. Huzzah. Go eat some challah bread.

I love robot chicken. Its good to me in bed.

I wish I was Milla Jovovich. Or Angelina Jolie. Or Christopher Reeve, OUT!

dunnanunnanunnanunna dunnanunnanunnanunna BATMAN

2005-06-24T13:36:00.000-04:00

I'm not retarded. Really.

Looking like a construction worker on a regular basis as I walk into Subway to get lunch gets old after a while. And having calloused, excessively dry, peeling manhands. Yeah, that's all the doing of my pottery class, which is quite enjoyable, but when you're rushed to throw everything together and live around thirty-minutes away...you just don't care anymore.

Mr. and Mrs. Smith is awesome. Batman Begins is awesome. What adds to the awesomeness is that Constantine comes out on DVD July 14th and Sin City on August 16th. It's sad how I base my summers on doing nothing and watching movies. I'm a hermit. And a geek that is growing wider one inch at a time.

By the way, W Magazine takes the best photographs ever. I bought the May issue only because the cover photo of Natalie Portman was amazing. The photos of the cover story were even better. Check out the July issue for a 60-page spread featuring...you guessed it (or didn't), Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt. I don't really care for Brad Pitt but those of you who really know me know of my Angelina Jolie obsession. Plus, the photos are spectacular. They play a couple with children in the 60s, when what you saw really wasn't how it was at all. Perfection taken to the extreme. Oh, how lame and cheesy catchphrases that I suddenly come up with make things so much lamer.

Anyway the whole point of this post was for the picturage. Went to Virginia for a wedding and decided I'd take the opportune moment to catch up with some friends. Was awesome, but short. Didn't really take the time or get the chance to shoot everything (I was tight on MB), but here's what I have.

And now, i'm off to work.

noseforwhatyou?

2005-05-26T00:03:00.000-04:00

i'm sick. yet another sinus infection. i think they (referring to the phlegm causing bacteria) love me...or just love residing in my obnoxiously large nose. makes sense, nu?

i need to find the missing piece that goes with my dad's tripod. i heart my dad. and my boss.
my boss got whomever is in charge of tuition reimbursement to get me approved for it! i never even said anything. all i knew was that you had to have a business/finance related major and you'd get reimbursed. my major is FAR from it (graphic design) but somehow she got me approved for that. she's so rad. I need to do something for her. make her a t-shirt that emphasizes her jewishness. mhmm. we get along so well. i get along with everyone so well at work, even those that most people choose not to work with.

and this is something that i've been having a ton of fun with lately. i can't recall if i've posted it up before, but i did a couple of others similar to this. think of them what you will.

My little little sister is a riot. You know how in 3rd grade you either plant a dinky flower in the tiniest pot possible and give it to your mom for mother's day? She did that. My mom left it for a couple of days near her other plants and needless to say, it didn't live very long.

Her: Mommmmmy I gave you that marigold and now its dead!
Mom: Oops.
Her: Give it to me! I can save it...I need to get all the
seeds out so I can plant them again!

So she heads outside so she can tear the pathetic thing apart to find seeds and marigolds have a nasty smell to them. Especially when they're dead. And she decided she didn't like the smell so she flung all the dirt off the deck along with the pot and kept the dead and dismembered marigold in her hand. Okay it was much funnier in person. I happened to have my camera with me and while she was being her usual silly adorable crazy self, I took a few shots. Yes her smile isn't the "prettiest" smile and she feels badly about it, but I love it even though my family thinks that they're not the most flattering shots of her. Eh, what do they know.

happy friday the 13th.

2005-05-13T10:33:00.000-04:00

it's great when you're feeling as "good" as you possibly can be in YEARS and then get shot down. by your own goddamned family. i thought this was all gone after 17.

With your feet on the air and your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
But there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself...
Where is my mind?

uraqt.

2005-05-05T00:12:00.000-04:00

2005-04-27T22:15:00.000-04:00

FUCK

playing with my toy.

2005-04-18T23:49:00.000-04:00

Perverts.

Then again, I am probably the biggest pervert I know. Perving is fun.

I love love love love love this. I have so many sexy plans for you. Here's some experimentation. Usually a lousy excuse for suckage. No photoshop edits. Except for the horrid unsharp mask on the metallic one. And the severe resizing. So I lied. But it was so that the screen didn't stretch out a million sizes too big for Mr. Monitor. Gahhhh. *wipes drool*

This is only the beginning. I can't wait til this semester and the plethora of projects are over. I'm shooting a film now. It's going to be awesomely terrible. An homage to Bill and Ted...by now i'm sure that you're in agony right now. Or a wild bout of laughter. I need to stop typing in fragments. Fraggle rock. Awesome. Awesome to the max. Futurama, you had me at hello.

Oh oh oh...by the way, I think I might take the radio down. Why? Because apparently my 1 whole gig of bandwidth is being used, leaving an ugly inline frame with pointless banner ads. My free host ain't that bad, but sheese capish. One gig? Damn. Especially for some cornball blog. Either I'll have to get rid of it entirely or only keep a few select songs while adding new ones each week. I think that sounds good, no? How many of you actually listen to the damn thing, I want to know.

i had to do it again.

2005-04-05T18:55:00.000-04:00

Whit and I found an abandoned wheelchair. Whit and I were thinking devious thoughts. Whit and I found an employee glaring at us.

I'm really going to enjoy my next assignment. It's your run of the mill design CD packaging. I think this is probably the third assignment that i've had like this. The first one kinda sucked and back then, when I was stupid and didn't back anything up, I wound up losing it. I'm gonna need to work some more for my portfolio.

I found an old thing I started a while ago. Actually, there are loads of those. I hardly finish anything I start unless I really am into it. I was into this one, but it was looking rather blaaah. I also managed to get the scanner working so I could reincarnate the magazine spread I did also. I did it last year, i believe. Damn quark corrupted both the file and its backup so it was lost for good. All I have is the actual comp. The spread got beat.

See how nasty that first one is? Since you've already seen something nasty, how about something a little hot. Maybe too hot. Ba badabaaaaa!

That would be the new Lara Croft. More realistic. A bit more in proportion. And definitely hotter. I shaded her lips in with a slight burgundy tint because it makes her look more like Lara. She never leaves without her lips that color. If only they'd keep Kurtis. Okay, i'm one of those. At first I wouldn't goa nywhere near AOD because it looked like such a terribly bad game. Then, the madre gets it for me on my birthday. I felt bad, so I didn't say anything. When I started playing it, it was actually pretty damned good. Only complaints were that it wasn't finished. Just like Enter the Matrix. It would've been 10x better as it is, but it had a good deal goin for it. I think most game mags and people jumped the tomb raider sucks donkeyballs bandwagon. Plus the addition of Kurtis (attractive set of polygons complete with grunting noises) made it all the better. I'm a loser but I'm still cooler than yo mama.

This post is already too long. Good day.

sin city was awesome.

2005-04-01T19:19:00.000-05:00

It really was. Why can't there be more movies like this? As I mentioned before, i'm a sucker for awesome cinematography.

With that being said, I'm normally not one to get involved in petty forum arguments (which usually result in namecalling because the opposing party knows he/she is wrong), but I had to say something to this nitwit.

ebeth87:
this entire movie was about degrading women. iv never been a feminist but COMMON lets kill them, rape them and hell while were at it EAT them. oh and hang their heads on the wall. the movie didnt even make any sense. the only reason guys like it is because they cant see tits on their own watch and have to see them in this movie.
My reply:
i'm a girl and i enjoyed it. I've never actually followed the comic books but i had gotten a look at them. The whole setting of this movie is a gritty one, where you'd only find the most horrible things in the city (hence the name).

Yes its full of gratuitous nudity and whatnot but that's only because it's sticking strictly to the comic book. I'm not a fan of nudity that really doesn't have much of a reason to be there, but I believe the movie did the comic justice.

I really hate to say this but its girls like you who make us look like a bunch of sappy, whiny, dumbasses who only enjoy a movie if it makes you cry at the end. go watch the notebook while you're at it.

There's a good chance that the above quoted numbnut is some seventeen or eighteen year-old (in my mind, twelve) who thinks it'd be damn cool to take a stand up against something. Hmm. How about a movie that I didn't understand? It's all their fault i'm a fucking idiot! TITS! DEGRADATION! FEMINISM! I SAY BOYCOTT! ROFL IT HAS THE WORD BOY IN IT!

And okay, seriously i'm not cool for bashing on dumbshit kids, but guess what? It feels DAMN GOOD to do so.

In other news, the old perv told me I look like Audrey Tautau, or Amelie to most of you folks out there. I've heard that one before. I've also been linked to Shannyn Sossamon, Katie Holmes, Christina Ricci, Angelina Jolie (swoon) and some random girl.

I also got me one of these babies.

This makes me a very, very happy individual. But the fact that the dude from ebay is taking too long to ship my DDR set is making me a hot little potato right now. Thank you Mugato.

Oh and it's about damn time that the pope died. I think I killed him. I went to Suncoast the other day with the Whitster and browsed the porno section for shits and giggles. To my great amusement, there was a DVD of the biography of the pope and I stuck it under the flaps that are supposed to cover all the pornos' retarded covers, basically making it the first DVD to be found if anyone was looking for a porno. Somewhere in the world, a great possibility being Vatican City, the pope was rolling over in his grave...even before he died. Alas, he couldn't. His hardon got in the way.

fully nonfuctional.

2005-03-24T20:21:00.000-05:00

yay. i need a camera. added some more tracks to the radio. and this would be a current project. I'm stumped. Need motivation inspiration what have you.

i'd emailed myself some freewriting I did a couple of days ago from work. i'm glad i never posted it.

2005-03-21T14:31:00.000-05:00

Back to school today. I can't wait until the summer arrives. Usually, I adore the winter, but since this winter sucked...yeah. If you've noticed (whomever "you" is), i've added a radio that somewhat works. Click the track that you want to hear. Most likely it'll be a collection of everything I like or a few select tracks that i'm currently obsessing over.

I absolutely cannot wait until Sin City and A Scanner Darkly come out. Both movies look rad and sexy beyond belief. The latter has astounding visuals, as seen below. Probably costed a lot of money and TIME to do that. It's insane.

I love how Sin City has that film noir 'bullet and babes' theme going on. The cinematography looks impressive. I'm a sucker for out of the ordinary filming techniques (see Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow). Hopefully this summer's lineup of movies won't disappoint me, though it most likely will. I think the best year for summer movies was 2003. Hm lets see, movies that i'm looking forward to this year:

Sin City
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Batman Begins
Mr & Mrs. Smith
The Brothers Grimm
Fantastic Four

Honorable Mentions: Domino, Madagascar, War of the Worlds.

While i'm still on the topic of movies, I really want this.

End of transmission.

you spin me right round baby right round.

2005-03-19T13:31:00.000-05:00

Mm, so i've been wanting much. Stuff that is. Among other things. The sexy techno stuff up there are thing that i've wanted for the longest time, but I recently fell in love with that loveseat. Why? Because there is some hope that we may be moving out of this place and the next place we do happen to get, the basement is all mine. Mhmm. Of course, with every loveseat it is necessary to have a widescreen flatscreen hdtv. I was considering getting the Konica Minolta Dimage A2, but I prefer a purebred SLR instead of a wannabe SLR. Sorry baby, you're not sexy enough. And the Powerbook...I want it so I can run away from Mikerowesoft. In case I do miss it, I also want one of these, but any of them will do. Does this make me sound like a materialistic individual? I find that I'm incredibly cheap to the point that I am Jewish, but occasionally will go on those stuffmonging urges that'll leave me drooling and wanting more of what I can't have. My pweshussss.

I feel that I should post pictures of my current temporary room. My old temporary room was the best even though it needed much work. My next temporary/permanent living quarters will be lime green.

My secret obsessive compulsive urges are acting up and telling me to fill the figure's (nelly furtado) hair up there with a rich black.

And boy do I sound like a self-obsessed whore up there.

2005-03-14T12:04:00.000-05:00

YEAAAAYAA~! i'm making progress. i'm making progress. i'm making progress. YESSSUH.

A treat for the nobodies:

2005-03-12T21:09:00.000-05:00

wow, i really don't like this place at all. AT ALL. but i'll deal with it. gives me more excuses to create layouts and whangnot. the default templates all look so...default. and the "special" ones are okay, but i need some variation, customization and a zing of imagination.

oh you should never never doubt what nobody is sure about.